When You Miss Your Brother
Oct. 6th, 2016 09:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mad_tea_partyI'm going through some rough things. Well, not really. Last night had a dream about my adoptive brother, Adrian. You guys know him as my slightly incestual crush. But last night, it was awful.
In the dream, Adrian had proposed to his long time girlfriend, Em. Dream!me was really upset about it, and I do mean really. I tried plurking about it, and it didn't work. When I woke up I was really surprised by how upset I still was.
Then I realized that it wasn't about my crush on him. Adrian may have been a crush at one point. But this time, it was about something else.
It was about Daniel. Daniel has pretty much pushed me and Mom out of his life ever since he moved in with Ashley, and of course moving makes that distance even MORE obvious. So in the dream, Adrian getting engaged sparked an irrational fear that he would do the same thing to me.
Lissa assured me that wouldn't happen. Especially since he and his girlfriend already live together, and have lived together for a long time. But it really made miss Daniel and really all my brothers. So I've spent most of tonight very upset and depressed.
Now that I've put this out there I am going to go splat with my other adopted brother, Anthony. He wants me to play Piranha Pit with him for a while. <3
In the dream, Adrian had proposed to his long time girlfriend, Em. Dream!me was really upset about it, and I do mean really. I tried plurking about it, and it didn't work. When I woke up I was really surprised by how upset I still was.
Then I realized that it wasn't about my crush on him. Adrian may have been a crush at one point. But this time, it was about something else.
It was about Daniel. Daniel has pretty much pushed me and Mom out of his life ever since he moved in with Ashley, and of course moving makes that distance even MORE obvious. So in the dream, Adrian getting engaged sparked an irrational fear that he would do the same thing to me.
Lissa assured me that wouldn't happen. Especially since he and his girlfriend already live together, and have lived together for a long time. But it really made miss Daniel and really all my brothers. So I've spent most of tonight very upset and depressed.
Now that I've put this out there I am going to go splat with my other adopted brother, Anthony. He wants me to play Piranha Pit with him for a while. <3
