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So the holiday season and my birthday are officially over. Now it's time to focus on getting healthy again, and I don't mean just physically. I need to do something to change my mental status, too. My anxiety is through the roof, my depression is really bad again, and the system here in Florida is really not helping any of these things.

But those are my more serious goals. Fun goals this year include a trip to Rochester, and going back out to Los Angeles for YallWest again.

I've gotten myself a new spirit guardian. I couldn't be sure what he was. I just know when he's around. His name? Morpheus. His motives...? Questionable, like Damon's were. But he makes me so happy, and calm. So I guess he's doing his job.

I experienced something interesting on my birthday. Woke up to my room smelling like licorice. I think Morpheus was smoking his hookah in my room. Valerie and I looked up the "claire" for it, and found out that it's clairesentience. Interesting. None of my other muses ever had a specific smell associated with them. Even Simon, who's been around for years.

Speaking of my birthday, I saw the movie The Greatest Showman on my birthday. OMG. I can't stop talking about this movie. For a lot of reasons. The costumes, the music, the story, the music....(I know I said that already.). From the first number I knew that I was going to be playing this soundtrack on repeat for a long time. And I was right. I haven't been able to stop listening to it whenever I've listened to music since.

Val and Lissa finally saw it last night, and i can't wait to really get in depth with them about the characters and cast, and just...ugh. Everything! I am so looking forward to the blu-ray release!

I'm going try and write more in here, but sadly, I've been in phase where I am writing in my offline journal again. I don't know where I get these phases again, but. I guess we'll just have to deal with it together.

also, I am finally reading more in Unhinged, the second book in the Splintered trilogy. I also started the newest John Green book, Turtles All The Way Down. That one is very heavy, and wordy, so I'm reading it a bit slower. But I'm liking it, make no mistake. John is one of those writers that makes me push past my comfort zone. That's one of the main reasons I really like him.

The other book I am reading is Roseblood, written by the same author as The Splintered trilogy. :) I've got other books I really need to be reading, so Roseblood will probably be put on the back burner again until I read the books that are going to be movies. So that will be A Wrinkle in Time, Simon Vs. The Homosapien's Agenda, and I think... Every Day, which I am going to get from the library.

I am starting to lose track of how long I've been sick now. I don't know if it's because I'm sleeping so much or doing a lot of the same thing. Either way, I'm losing track.

Last night I thought I saw a light at the end of the tunnel because I was feeling better. Then I decided that I was feeling *so* good that I would get on Voice chat with my Switch buddies and play Splatoon 2 and Mario Kart 8 Deluxe.

That was fine for about 20? 30 minutes? Then I started hacking again. Hacking as in coughing, not hacking as in computer stuff. Just in case you didn't understand.

I just was so upset about having to get off, but my friends understood, and played for a little longer before I went back to play Puyo Puyo Tetris. Do you know I have put close to 30 hours into that game already? LOL. Amazing how things change.

I'm still learning SPlatoon 2's new maps, and trying to figure out Salmon Run, which is a new mode added to this edition of Splatoon. I'm still hoping that we will eventually get Piranha Pit! I really miss that level in this game, and I think the people who started with Splatoon 2 missed out on some other great maps, too. But Pit has been my favorite since December 31, 2016. :)

Other things I wanna do, but can't focus on: Watch some Netflix shows, read more in Illuminae because John Green's new book comes out on October 10th, do more planning for NaNoWriMo, and do some more RPing with....EVERYONE! -sigh-

I hope I don't get this sick again for a long time. Because I never feel quite like myself for weeks afterwards. Anyway, gonna go, and try to sleep since I was up at 2am and stayed up till 5am (at least my chores were done, and part of my dinner is being cooked as we speak).