My New Normal
Mar. 27th, 2022 04:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mad_tea_partyDid you know the definition of normal can change? I mean, seriously. My normal has changed drastically since January. How? Well. Let's take the time of day I am writing this entry. It's a quarter to 5am in the morning (east coast time, for those who don't remember where I live.) This has been going on since hte middle of January. Ever since I started my new medication for my migraines. I can't attribute ever single sleepless night to the Topomax though. Not anymore. I've widely adjusted to that.
Tonight's sleepless night can be attributed to the fact I had to take some Excederin for a Caffeine related migraine around 11pm tonight. I really should've just slept it off. But the headache was so bad it hurt to lay my head down, so that wasn't gonna happen. I don't know what made me think I could go two days without caffeine. I was trying to catch up on my sleep. I guess I might be a little fucked there. New normal, here I come.
So here is my new philosophy. Sleep when I'm tired. Be awake when I'm not. Be productive when I can be. Even my Mom has become more and more receptive to that idea, even though she is still trying ot push me more. I can see her thought process. She doesn't want me to settle, and just give up, and I totally get her logic, but there are days where i just really do not feel well mentally or emotionally, and just could give two flying fucks about my laundry (especially my laundry) or anything else being clean, even if in reality, I really wish things were much tidier than they are.
Cause believe it or not, I am a total Monica Geller. I really really hate clutter. It makes me anxious as fuck. Clutter scares me, y'all. I don't know if that surprises anyone here. Maybe Lexi? Maybe Sara? No one else I think has seen my room in person? Hmm. Well, aside from my bonds and headspace muses. But they don't technically count...
Wakko: Whatcha mean we don't count?!
Me: Well, I mean...
Yakko: Hey, we count!
Dot: Yeah! We cound all the time! See?::holds up Abacus::
Me::throws up hands::Okay, okay you count!
Ahem...as I was saying.... I would love to take an entire day to clean my bedroom, dust and vacuum. My book collection eeds a good dusting, and I would probably feel better if I dusted the shelves really good. But...ugh. So much energy, and so much energy I Don't have to expend. It'e really just energy to get out of bed to do nromaly things like pee and get dressed. I've been started having a hard time doing that! Anyway.
I've recently scheduled some fun things from the library so hopefully that will keep me busy and perhaps tire me out. Then I can fix this damn sleeping issue. But I am not hopeful. I am still holding out that I nigbht have this issue for a while yet, if forever.
Tonight's sleepless night can be attributed to the fact I had to take some Excederin for a Caffeine related migraine around 11pm tonight. I really should've just slept it off. But the headache was so bad it hurt to lay my head down, so that wasn't gonna happen. I don't know what made me think I could go two days without caffeine. I was trying to catch up on my sleep. I guess I might be a little fucked there. New normal, here I come.
So here is my new philosophy. Sleep when I'm tired. Be awake when I'm not. Be productive when I can be. Even my Mom has become more and more receptive to that idea, even though she is still trying ot push me more. I can see her thought process. She doesn't want me to settle, and just give up, and I totally get her logic, but there are days where i just really do not feel well mentally or emotionally, and just could give two flying fucks about my laundry (especially my laundry) or anything else being clean, even if in reality, I really wish things were much tidier than they are.
Cause believe it or not, I am a total Monica Geller. I really really hate clutter. It makes me anxious as fuck. Clutter scares me, y'all. I don't know if that surprises anyone here. Maybe Lexi? Maybe Sara? No one else I think has seen my room in person? Hmm. Well, aside from my bonds and headspace muses. But they don't technically count...
Wakko: Whatcha mean we don't count?!
Me: Well, I mean...
Yakko: Hey, we count!
Dot: Yeah! We cound all the time! See?::holds up Abacus::
Me::throws up hands::Okay, okay you count!
Ahem...as I was saying.... I would love to take an entire day to clean my bedroom, dust and vacuum. My book collection eeds a good dusting, and I would probably feel better if I dusted the shelves really good. But...ugh. So much energy, and so much energy I Don't have to expend. It'e really just energy to get out of bed to do nromaly things like pee and get dressed. I've been started having a hard time doing that! Anyway.
I've recently scheduled some fun things from the library so hopefully that will keep me busy and perhaps tire me out. Then I can fix this damn sleeping issue. But I am not hopeful. I am still holding out that I nigbht have this issue for a while yet, if forever.
