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So I haven't been writing in any medium except fiction lately. But that's probably not good because I have a lot of things that have been building up for a while, and no amount of writing about it is going to fix it unless I am rich or not depending on SSI for money.

So in April, as you know, I went to California, and I had so much fun. I didn't really write much about it because honestly there was a lot to take in, and a lot to absorb. When I got home, I found myself in a state of constant depression and sadness because I didn't *want* to be here. Now I can relate to what Lexi and Marcia were going through when they'd come visit me in Baltimore.

May and June were subpar months at best, and I spent most of them in my room petting Sandy, sleeping, and sometimes going out with Daddy. I tried a couple of times to explain my ongoing battle with depression, and the lack of feeling like doing things since I'd been home, but you know Daddy C doesn't really believe that you can be taken down by mental illness. When he thinks of mental illness he thinks of people like Summer and my Aunt Kathy who aren't as high functioning as I am. I've pretty much given up on him ever understanding. Though every so often I try again, and he tries, when he's of the mind to do so.

July saw a reunion with my lesser brother, Chris. I call him my lesser brother because he and I really don't get along nearly as well as me and Daniel do. We've always had this rift between us because of my natural father. But! This visit was different. It was fun, and I got to meet my nieces, Raven and Rainey. They are two of the cutest little girls you will ever meet! Raven became my buddy right away while Rainey remained tentative about me the whole visit. Either way, it was great!

While Chris and his family were here, we went to John's Pass. And that is where I found my new babies, Riley and Kit. They are Land hermit crabs, and they really are so cute. Right away when I got them home, I went on a hunt to find out what I would need to make them long term pets instead of pets that died within a week of getting them.

And guess what, it's been a whole month, and they're still not dead. In fact, tomorrow, I will be getting a free set up from a guy who aids in Hermit Crab rescue and adoption. Then my babies will be out of their small critter keeper and into a fresh tank with moss, shells, proper food and water. :) Honestly these little guys have kept me sane, and patient with myself while I readjusted to being in an empty house after all of our visitors left. (We had a few days with Bonnie and her girls, too. Three days after I got my hermit crabs).

This coming Tuesday, going back to Coloring club to see some of my friends at the library. Have really missed them and can't wait to get back there. I just hadn't felt like it recently, but will definitely try and go again more regularly. I do miss it.

On the writing front, I've run back to the Robas for "comfort", and I'm okay with staying there for a while. I still wanna work on the Roba Chronicles project. I am not closer to finishing the first Victoria story than I was the last time I updated, though some things have happened.

I do have a better understanding of what happened to Marcia, and I'll be working on her novel next.

Anyway, this is just a few things that I needed to get out. I love you guys, and I'll try to update more often. :)