So many missed discussions.
Jan. 31st, 2025 09:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mad_tea_partyDear Fred,
It's been a good minute since I've "visited" you. Some significant things have happened since then, and so many of them I'd have loved to have talked to you about over the phone.
Before I get into the more fun stuff, I should probably start with the more serious things.
So my Dad was diagnosed with Liver Cancer a couple of months ago. For some reason, it didn't hit me as hard as the first time when he got Lymphoma. It's kinda "funny" that it didn't because Liver Cancer is far more fatal in terms of ease of curability.
At the time of diagnosis, his cancer specialist had told us that it was an easy fix. He'd get an operation to remove the cancerous lesions. So there was no real reason to panic even if we all remained concerned.
Well, today, we found out he couldn't do the operation because the other condition of his liver, serosis was too severe. And the longer we wait for a treatment plan the more severe the problem gets.
My parents don't tihnk I realize this, but hell. Fred, you and I both know how many medical shows I've seen. Okay, so most of them might not be exactly accurate, but at least Grey's Anatomy and The Good Doctor were fairly accurate in my estimation. So I know a little bit about this fucking C shit works. I mean, look at how quickly you declined. I had less than a year to even process you were sick, and then you were just... gone. And damned if I don't want that shit to happen to Dad. I want them to fucking jump on this shit and give him the best chance at life he can get! for obvious reasons, I don't know what kind of treatment you were getting, but I would hope that they jumped on yours as quickly as possible.
On top of that, I am still battling to come to terms with the loss of so many places out in California. The wildfires that raged for weeks out near LA and in Altadena... One of my friends, Lissa, lost her entire house. Now I'd only been inside it a handful of times on visits, but I'd gotten to know it. It fellt like a second home to me. And there are memories there that we can't get back.
But. The worst part of it is the sheer amount of things that my friend Lissa lost. Her entire book collection (autographs, special editions...etc.) She lost her Switch, she lost all of her Power Rangers merchandise. (AGain SOME are replaceable, but most of them probably aren't. I have no idea who all's she had autograph wise).
Let me tell you. it hit me like a fucking ton of bricks tonight, Fred. So, I made this offhanded comment. I'd noticed tonight that my Nintendo Switch was still in the West Coast time zone. I had changed it when I went out west back in August for PowerMorphicon. and it cracked me up that I had forgotten to change it back.
And she came back with, "Someday I'll have a Switch again." FUCK. How could I have been so goddamn insensitive? And then after all that? I realized how hard it's been for her to even discuss books with me, and I just...I'm fucking lost, Fred. Books, Power Rangers, Switch? Those are all things she and I shared and I still really want to talk about it with her, but I feel like I can't now. And it fucking hurts. And let me remind you, yes I am well aware that she is probably hurting 1000x worse than I am about this. and I feel like a horrible friend for not even taking it into consideration before even mentioning my switch. I should have known better. *sigh*
So all of that horrible stuff aside....
About...2 weeks ago, I finally finished Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger. I am so grateful that you didn't spoil the ending for me. (But especially, I am glad you didn't spoil Basco's true form for me, knowing that I was a huge fan of his).
It felt good to finally finish it, but as you well know, it was also very bitter sweet. I didn't get to really gush about it with anyone. I know, had you been around, and able to talk to me, you and I would have been tlaking, laughing, and debating some stuff in those last few episodes.
What makes the whole sentai thing so hard is the that I have so much regret. With each new one I watch. My mind always goes to, "Has Fred seen this one? Would he have liked it? Does he know about what happened to Junya Ikeda?" Yeah, that last one. Sorry.
Would you believe, Fred, that every time I think way too much about Junya Ikeda, it hurts deeply? I don't know why. Plenty of celebrities I've liked (inlcuding, yes, Ricardo "Rick" Medina) have gotten into legall troubles, and I did not take it nearly as hard. But geezus cripes if this thing with Junya hasn't gotten to me more than it should!
Oh! But here is something. I''ve become a huge fan of other Sentai series then. After Gokaiger (and actually, not after. During. ) I became very interested in Magiranger. One because my friend Alex prefers it over Mystic Force (I don't know if I will ever say that because I love Mystic Force dearly. Especialy Xander and lately, Chip. <3 But I love the Ozu family as much. <3 I started into it because of Kai Ozu, who appeared in episode 3. He had this serious blonde streak in his hair, and I absolutely fell head over heels for him.
Since starting his original series, I've found love for each of the Ozu siblings, and even two (technically one?) of the villains. My favorites are still Kai and Tsubasa, but I've come to realize that they all work best as whole with each having their own specific strengths.
The other series I started was Timeranger, which for those who are reading this, and don't know, is the original series that Time Force came from. Now this one, I got interested in because I was overly curious abotu Trip's counterpart. He has quite a few difference but Sion has a lot of the same naivety and "i must protect him at all costs" personality that Trip would later embody. He also has a similar episode to Trip earlier in the season than Trip's was, but according to what I've found online, that was not the episode that would be adapted into "Trip Takes a Stand". I am curious to see how that one plays out with Sion. (It is, as you've probably figured out by now) my favorite episode of Time Force and for many good reasons. My second favorite, to be fair, is the episode is when the fate of Wes' father is reversed. But actually if I am being honest, it's tied with the one where Mr. Collins confronts Ransik. And even though Ransik attacks him, the strong discussion the two have is just....some of the best Power Rangers acting I've ever witnessed (NOT counting RPM, and of course Trip's own iconic episode)
Okay, sorry, Fred. You know how your girl gets when she gets into a certain topic and we can all agree that RPM and Time Force are equally obession worthy. LOL. an anyway. Now that I am feeling better, and have had my cry. I am ready to return to my friends online. Thank you, Fred, as always for just listening. I love you, and I'll see you soon, nii-samaa. (Haha, bet you thought I forgot I used to call you that, didn't you?)
It's been a good minute since I've "visited" you. Some significant things have happened since then, and so many of them I'd have loved to have talked to you about over the phone.
Before I get into the more fun stuff, I should probably start with the more serious things.
So my Dad was diagnosed with Liver Cancer a couple of months ago. For some reason, it didn't hit me as hard as the first time when he got Lymphoma. It's kinda "funny" that it didn't because Liver Cancer is far more fatal in terms of ease of curability.
At the time of diagnosis, his cancer specialist had told us that it was an easy fix. He'd get an operation to remove the cancerous lesions. So there was no real reason to panic even if we all remained concerned.
Well, today, we found out he couldn't do the operation because the other condition of his liver, serosis was too severe. And the longer we wait for a treatment plan the more severe the problem gets.
My parents don't tihnk I realize this, but hell. Fred, you and I both know how many medical shows I've seen. Okay, so most of them might not be exactly accurate, but at least Grey's Anatomy and The Good Doctor were fairly accurate in my estimation. So I know a little bit about this fucking C shit works. I mean, look at how quickly you declined. I had less than a year to even process you were sick, and then you were just... gone. And damned if I don't want that shit to happen to Dad. I want them to fucking jump on this shit and give him the best chance at life he can get! for obvious reasons, I don't know what kind of treatment you were getting, but I would hope that they jumped on yours as quickly as possible.
On top of that, I am still battling to come to terms with the loss of so many places out in California. The wildfires that raged for weeks out near LA and in Altadena... One of my friends, Lissa, lost her entire house. Now I'd only been inside it a handful of times on visits, but I'd gotten to know it. It fellt like a second home to me. And there are memories there that we can't get back.
But. The worst part of it is the sheer amount of things that my friend Lissa lost. Her entire book collection (autographs, special editions...etc.) She lost her Switch, she lost all of her Power Rangers merchandise. (AGain SOME are replaceable, but most of them probably aren't. I have no idea who all's she had autograph wise).
Let me tell you. it hit me like a fucking ton of bricks tonight, Fred. So, I made this offhanded comment. I'd noticed tonight that my Nintendo Switch was still in the West Coast time zone. I had changed it when I went out west back in August for PowerMorphicon. and it cracked me up that I had forgotten to change it back.
And she came back with, "Someday I'll have a Switch again." FUCK. How could I have been so goddamn insensitive? And then after all that? I realized how hard it's been for her to even discuss books with me, and I just...I'm fucking lost, Fred. Books, Power Rangers, Switch? Those are all things she and I shared and I still really want to talk about it with her, but I feel like I can't now. And it fucking hurts. And let me remind you, yes I am well aware that she is probably hurting 1000x worse than I am about this. and I feel like a horrible friend for not even taking it into consideration before even mentioning my switch. I should have known better. *sigh*
So all of that horrible stuff aside....
About...2 weeks ago, I finally finished Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger. I am so grateful that you didn't spoil the ending for me. (But especially, I am glad you didn't spoil Basco's true form for me, knowing that I was a huge fan of his).
It felt good to finally finish it, but as you well know, it was also very bitter sweet. I didn't get to really gush about it with anyone. I know, had you been around, and able to talk to me, you and I would have been tlaking, laughing, and debating some stuff in those last few episodes.
What makes the whole sentai thing so hard is the that I have so much regret. With each new one I watch. My mind always goes to, "Has Fred seen this one? Would he have liked it? Does he know about what happened to Junya Ikeda?" Yeah, that last one. Sorry.
Would you believe, Fred, that every time I think way too much about Junya Ikeda, it hurts deeply? I don't know why. Plenty of celebrities I've liked (inlcuding, yes, Ricardo "Rick" Medina) have gotten into legall troubles, and I did not take it nearly as hard. But geezus cripes if this thing with Junya hasn't gotten to me more than it should!
Oh! But here is something. I''ve become a huge fan of other Sentai series then. After Gokaiger (and actually, not after. During. ) I became very interested in Magiranger. One because my friend Alex prefers it over Mystic Force (I don't know if I will ever say that because I love Mystic Force dearly. Especialy Xander and lately, Chip. <3 But I love the Ozu family as much. <3 I started into it because of Kai Ozu, who appeared in episode 3. He had this serious blonde streak in his hair, and I absolutely fell head over heels for him.
Since starting his original series, I've found love for each of the Ozu siblings, and even two (technically one?) of the villains. My favorites are still Kai and Tsubasa, but I've come to realize that they all work best as whole with each having their own specific strengths.
The other series I started was Timeranger, which for those who are reading this, and don't know, is the original series that Time Force came from. Now this one, I got interested in because I was overly curious abotu Trip's counterpart. He has quite a few difference but Sion has a lot of the same naivety and "i must protect him at all costs" personality that Trip would later embody. He also has a similar episode to Trip earlier in the season than Trip's was, but according to what I've found online, that was not the episode that would be adapted into "Trip Takes a Stand". I am curious to see how that one plays out with Sion. (It is, as you've probably figured out by now) my favorite episode of Time Force and for many good reasons. My second favorite, to be fair, is the episode is when the fate of Wes' father is reversed. But actually if I am being honest, it's tied with the one where Mr. Collins confronts Ransik. And even though Ransik attacks him, the strong discussion the two have is just....some of the best Power Rangers acting I've ever witnessed (NOT counting RPM, and of course Trip's own iconic episode)
Okay, sorry, Fred. You know how your girl gets when she gets into a certain topic and we can all agree that RPM and Time Force are equally obession worthy. LOL. an anyway. Now that I am feeling better, and have had my cry. I am ready to return to my friends online. Thank you, Fred, as always for just listening. I love you, and I'll see you soon, nii-samaa. (Haha, bet you thought I forgot I used to call you that, didn't you?)
